No, the title of this blog is not sarcasm. Lately, I’ve realized I enjoy getting older. Not that I’m in a hurry to turn 50 – that can wait – but I do like growing and changing as a person that only happens as time goes by.
A week ago, my handsome husband entered his 30’s and a few days later my son turned 3. I’m really into celebrating birthdays for our family. I try to make each member feel loved and appreciated as well as think about the impact each person has had on my life.
My husband and I will celebrate 9 years of marriage at the end of this month and have been together for almost 14 years. Although some people say getting into a relationship that young is bad, which it can be, I’ve loved “growing up” with him. We have a lot of history together and a deep love for one another. I’m so thankful for him and all the support and encouragement he’s given me. He’s always believed in me and truly brings out my best self.
As my son has changed from a toddler to a preschooler, I marvel at him. If you are a parent, you know that it changes you. Before my son, I was prudish and very selfish. With children your modesty goes away – at least it did for me- after going through the birthing process and now constantly having a bathroom buddy. He is a reflection of the best parts of my husband and I, as well as becoming his own person with his own interests. It is because of him, and his sister, that I am as empathetic as I am. For me, being a mom has made me care so much more about other people than I ever did before.
That being said, I am moving past the point of being a bent over backwards people pleaser at my own expense. I will help anyone if I can but not if it it’s extremely inconvenient. I’ve learned there is beauty in the word “no”. I’ve also gotten to be more confident in myself and the Christ in me. Do I make mistakes? Everyday but I’m not holding it against me and do my best to move on.
These changes in me wouldn’t have happened without time ticking away and aging. I don’t want to be 29 forever. My desire is to enjoy every moment of my life right now and continue to look forward to my bright future.
There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens: